UntitledI only came to university because there was nowhere else to go.I dutifully fulfilled my high school career with a moderate honours, moderate grades.Nowhere near the high expectations.But in my mind, I thought I would try harder.When I walked out each morning, I would look up at the sky. For each month in the fall, it was a startlingly saturated blue.Exactly the sort of colour that remained crisp in my mind. I always wanted to live in a surrealistic world where with that blue sky above me was within reach. Where I could push against its glassy surface as I pleased. Where, upon times of frustration, I could break it to make my breaths
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questioning of innocenceif innocence is a thing envisioned by adultsand perhaps locked to children as a possessive traitsuch that they have it /are born with /are granted/etc. to give reason to childish behaviourif the loss ofis considered a tragedyto explain unhappiness /sorrow? /loss / lack ofto give reason to the gray coloured hearts heldif the rare maturation of flowerwas a kept thing that bore fruit of innocencethen what does that fruit blossom to?eaten by those who are the loss ofor accepted by those who have the traithave You considered yourselfas a loss ofa trait locked ontoor are you that rare flower / fruit?
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